Drum Roll Please....

for some reason i feel to forgo some of the conventions of writing. this is just going to be a stream of randomness. i am just going to type whatever is in my mind. i think i have officially reached burn out. i am tired. i cannot focus. i have no desire to do anything. i just want to sit and stare at the wall. i could lay in bed and never get out and just be fine with that. it doesnt help that the sun is not shining. i cry a lot and for no reason. my mood changes second to second. i just want to run and not stop. i was doing fine, that was until i got the grades for my first year of law school. any thought that i would be somewhat successful was dashed after the first semester. i dont like the way law school works. they beat you down. there has to be a better way to sift through the crop. or maybe its just a reality check. i'm tired of being average and mediocre. oh well. my grades werent really that bad. but not that great. the hard thing is that i guess ive never really had to study. i have a pretty good memory. i read it and go to class and after a simple review i can recall it. unfortuneately law school isnt like that. you have to know it and then apply it in the way the professor thinks it should be applied. not only do you have to learn the law, but what your professor feels the law is and respond accordingly. but anyway here they are:

reading, writing, and advocacy - 79

legal bibliography - pass

contracts I and II - 77

property I and II - 76

criminal law - 79

the sad thing is you would think that i would be motivated to be better, but it has just the opposite affect. after all the work this is what i get why try? sorry this is so depressing and what not. i promise to post something more upbeat...